Waiting for inspiration....

I think it would be kind of super awesome to learn another language fluently and be able to think in that language. At least, I think it would be pretty awesome...
It would also confuse anyone who has the ability to read minds.

Today I was helping my friends little brother with math. She couldn't figure out the story problems so she asked me to. Like usual, I read the problem and drew it out. I'm not an artist, and shoes and socks are something I will never ever ever ever be good at drawing. He mocked my drawings. :c
"My shoes don't look like that."
"Well my shoe's ALWAYS look like that."
"That's not what shoes look like"
"Lets pretend they're super duper awesomely drawn shoes."

I really don't know how to blog. Often times I come here to write something thinking that it will be fantastic and then I go to actually write something, end up with a paragraph or two, hate it, delete it and leave for about a week.
Waiting for inspiration sucks.
So does participating in marching band when it snows.

"We're all in the same game, just different levels; dealing with the same hell, just different devils."



And speaking of games, I just lost The Game.

Seems we've all been studying wrong

Inspiration

The funny thing about being vegetarian and still participating in thanksgiving (and I suppose this would hold true even if I didn't.) is that there is no turkey. But everyone talks about turkey and "happy turkey day"
What turkey?

That was a really sad way to start off a blog post. But I seriously lack inspiration. I should be finishing an English paper right about now but I can't. It doesn't even need inspiration, I just have to WRITE, but I can't because I'm so focused on this idea of inspiration. I need it to write something that doesn't require it.
Or maybe I'm just justifying procrastination.
The second one seems more likely than the first, but I like the first better.

Mr. Eiser is convinced that I think everyone is rude.

Goals

There's a movie I watched a while ago, I believe it was called Hugo.
And although I wasn't all for the movie, it had a good message somewhere in there that really stuck. That the world is a machine built with all of it's needed parts. And no matter how much it may not feel like it, we all fit somewhere, it's just a matter of understanding where it is you fit.

Whenever I feel like I belong nowhere, like I don't have a place in this school or this town I remember that and I remind myself that no matter how much I may feel like I don't belong now. Like I don't have friends and just kind of drift through my day, some day I'll belong somewhere and I'll be glad I waited for that day.
It's the same idea that got my dad through the hardest part of his life. Just simply knowing that some day he would smile again kept him going because he just couldn't wait for that day.
And I guess that's how a pessimist makes it through the day, at least I do. By having something to look forward to. Small goals that add up over time to where you are meant to end up.
(Look at me, being successful and writing two posts in a day.)

Optimism

I'm a pessimist. It's just about as simple as that. And I know what you might think "well, why not just....not be?"
It's really not that easy. No matter how hard I try to be an optimist, and god knows I've tried, it's just not that simple. My happy thoughts end in an angry or depressive Ani and my pessimistic thoughts never lead to happy thoughts. And although I try to force myself to an optimistic conclusion to any pessimistic thought, it's usually a forced conclusion and not something that I actually believe in.
Which is always super fun when I'm trying my hardest to get a decent amount of sleep.

Yay short posts! (:

I'm not so good at titles

“We don't pick who we fall in love with. And it never happens as it should.”

I have a habit of watching a lot of movies at any given time for no reason whatsoever. But almost always, when this happens, I end up watching "no strings attached" I don't know for sure what it is about that movie but its... my favorite. Aside from the obvious other favorites like spirited away, Coraline, Avatar and extremely loud and incredibly close, and other movies that I can't really think of at the moment, that movie might just take the top position on my personal list of top ten favorites.  

But maybe that quote is one of the big points in the movie that I can never get enough of. I think that maybe what made that movie jump from "Wow, I like this movie" to "I. Love. This. Movie." is just the simplicity of it. The simplicity that for some reason most people don't get. Because you really don't pick who you fall in love with, you just do. And maybe you plan it all out, you expect it to happen one way, but somewhere along the way it takes a wrong turn or an unexpected turn and everything goes way different from what you expected.

And that's what makes it so great, and so horrible at the same time, you can't expect anything except the unexpected. 

Tahdah.

So, I'm blogging again. I figure if I really wanted this summer to mean something, I ought to go out there and get whatever it is I wanted it to mean.
So, Tahdah.

I don't really have much to say, so, until next time.